Like I mentioned in my last post, Cliff and I visited Faith's Lodge a few months after Patricia's death. One of the traditions there is the creation of a heartstone. These stones are placed on the property in remembrance of our precious babies. I have never been a very artistic person, but I love the stone I made for Patricia.
We would love to visit again someday and find her stone. |
Patricia's special place is wherever our family is. We chose cremation rather than burial because we don't know where our future will take us and I couldn't bear the thought of leaving her behind. Wherever we end up, her special place will be with us.
About 14 weeks into my pregnancy with Patricia |
Despite my occasional low days when I just feel like giving up, I do have hope for the future. Whether it is true or not, loss moms tend to believe we cherish and appreciate our living children more than parents who have not lost a child. Our perspectives are forever changed. I believe my experience as Patricia's mother helps me every day as Anna's mother. Our daughter's death did not have a purpose, but her life had a purpose. As I described earlier in the month, our family is Patricia's legacy and we are forever changed and made stronger by the love we have for her.
About 24 weeks into my pregnancy with Patricia |
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